when "what ifs' turn into the "is" and the "are"

i feel it's this simple:

to follow your heart and do it.

to have a feeling and follow it.

to see good things and say thanks if you see fit.

maybe i enjoy being inappropriate,

absurd,

loud,

quiet, 

alone,

good, 

bad, 

and perhaps even

ugly...

reading this, you know me.

everyone has the capacity to do what they want and say what they feel and be as amazing as they allow themselves to be. know this:

what you love in others, you have in you. same goes for what drives you insane. what you think is sexy is what you have. what you think is pretty is also inside. what you think is witty you have the sharpness to understand. what you wanna say has been said and the world turns, without regard to guilt or hurt feelings and really, we don't owe anybody anything except to respond to life with something honest.  magic is everywhere. i sometimes think traffic in LA happens because the people here need to slow down, quit dressing up, and sit in a little machine by themselves and think about what the fuck they're doing.

i feel like i've written that before. it's worth saying again...

if what you do every day is exhausting, find your way to the opposite effect. i know that snap of a finger wont change much, but its the effort that counts.

effort changes everything.

my horoscope just read: it's a good time to let people know how much you love them.

awesome. 

i feel like spreadin' the love. summer is coming and i am ready for it.  summer is my strongest season. i was born in the summer and when it comes i feel a tickle in my brain that's quiet in the winter, not as good as in the fall, and not even close in the spring.

i could eat some soup right now. bread to dip in. i could eat a bowl of spaghetti. i could also have a salad. I could grab some sweet potato fries...that's an idea. hmmm.  hmm...sushi?

funny how often what i write comes down to food or kissing. ('cuz here comes the kissing part...)

sometimes i wake up in the morning and dream up someone who kisses my neck, nuzzles my face on the right side, and then he disappears and reappears on the other side. he disappears again and then i start my day. and that's it some days; that is nourishment enough.

all the sex has evolved to the movements around it now. i prefer flirting, gazing, holding hands, kissing. intercourse: bleh. sometimes i think that the puritan courtship ideals have it right. SOMETIMES. 

but, i get it. 

i like these moments. 

i lack control.

if i'm gonna eat something, it's gotta be soon because there might be some romance happenin' later.

thoughts after a really good conversation with a close friend

when i don't follow my instincts, things suck. why fight that power just because acting logically is the "popular" and conventional way? there is an innovative spirit in people...in EVERYONE that has yet to be unlocked and better said: allowed.

I get by on gut feelings. trying to describe this to people is difficult and probably ridiculous sounding in most cases. 

I get by on loving my friends...and once in a while i happen to run into them and we share these mutual feelings with a helluva lot of laughter.

I get by on sitting in my room and breathing.

I get by on car rides with the music as my own soundtrack, dancing in the street to this continuing soundtrack, and making noise whilst enjoying these moments without giving a damn.

i guess that timing is everything. i trust myself enough to have enough faith and grace about the things that really matter to me.

i guess the most important thing that i've learned these past few days is that the moment that i slip out of my childlike tendencies, shit gets all fucked up.

stay in wonder. stay in love.  be grateful for the reminders that bring you back to wanting to stay in wonder. stay in love.  poetry is everywhere and everything breathes.

tipsy topsy turvy

each moment is new 

so i'm taking advantage of

each 

moment

friends with myself

today i am friends with myself.

i say, "good morning, you...dang! you look refreshed."

i say  "let's do some yoga.

you gonna get your car checked out? eh, it's probably alright. let's hang out instead.

you ever call that one lady who left a voicemail? do it later. let's hang out.

is it cold outside? what are you wearing today?

want to to go out and check how cold it is? sweater? wear the hoodie. you love the hoodie..."