friends with myself

today i am friends with myself.

i say, "good morning, you...dang! you look refreshed."

i say  "let's do some yoga.

you gonna get your car checked out? eh, it's probably alright. let's hang out instead.

you ever call that one lady who left a voicemail? do it later. let's hang out.

is it cold outside? what are you wearing today?

want to to go out and check how cold it is? sweater? wear the hoodie. you love the hoodie..."

dancing makes it all make sense

fuck it. i don't need it. 

i got it.

nothing and everything...

i'm all llama and no drama.

above any man 

is me

dancing my ass off,

dancing my heart out,

not giving a shit.

no need for coolness, this one's for you.

to my future children: mom had a blast in her day.

she was limber, a teacher, drank her share, and feels your pain.

she believes you are the future.

to the father of my child: lovey did it her way

and won't stop.  only kiss me when you mean it because i can tell the difference.

wanna make out?

i belong everywhere.

neurons firing plus me trying to sit on my hands while watching my thoughts like clouds

what the fuck.

it's only been thirteen days?????

lordy. get of the nuts. sit on your hands indeed. strap weld them to the ground and just wait.

hahah. the impatience to start something that you're building up to something so great. and it hasn' t even been two weeks. the real already happened and the only thing that is real here is your eagerness.

having faith

sitting on my hands.

i'd like this all to work out like it's supposed to and i know it will,

so says the yogi.

swim in this! be giddy!

when's the next time? what are you doing?

god, i cant wait! the long hair suits you. smile smile smile smile,

so says the girl.

fucking relax.

just another boy and frankly, 

you've been havin' fun, yo.

all is good and all can happen. want a drink?

so says the dude.

breathe. find a skirt for tomorrow.

write your love notes.

don't fret.

live in the now.

love all of it.

so says everyone in me...

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and after all this, what it boils down to is the healthy desire of someone to freak out and share with. 

no hesitation. no second thought. just the now. every adventure is a new one because i am in a state of constant change. i might have felt it when he took my hand for the first time.  

after that night and a few days later i thought: "alright. i think i get it now."  and when i think about those moments that are in the vault, I can't help but smile. it just happens to my face.