it's been a while/crazy grown up things i find myself doing

lately i've been working like a dog, eating like a bird, and reading like my life depended on it (which, in many ways, it does. it has kept me alive in many ways).  After meditating and laying naked in bed checking emails this morning, I thought "holy crap, what time is it?"  when i saw that it was 10am and realized that i'd been up since 7:30 on a SUNDAY, i realized that this was something to document.

who AM i ? and what the fuck am i doing up that early?  at least i woke up on my own. fuck an alarm on a sunday...

happy new year, vulnerable one. here's what you've been lately:

busy/lazy

in charge/fumbling for clues

teacher/student/goof-off

dork/fireball

hungry/satisfied

exhausted/electric

i've been going to work, teaching yoga, teaching teachers, taking on a mentor, taking on myself, PLUS paying rent and catching up with real world hoohah.  this involves waking up fucking early and lots of sacrifice. lots of reclusive moments where i try to use angry moments to propel me into productivity.  procrastination is a funny quality to have when life doesn't allow you to be a procrastinator any more.  i still laugh at dirty jokes and puns that have double meanings.  a bag of money would make things easier but would have no effect on the joy in my life.  i want a banana split. i want to be massaged to sleep and wake up with someone that i have a crush on next to me.  i want to feel like i got enough sleep everyday. i want all of my food to taste delicious.  so shall it be!

i want a man to casually date and have sex with and have dibs on. and he'll have dibs on me.  

i want to be kissed hard.

all my men are far away right now. namely, Nevada, Boston, and Tacoma. fucking tacoma.

haha.

i am drinking tea.

  i just finished playing with my yoga website. for being temporary and a blog, i like it a lot.

i am happy. i love life. i love the cycles of it. i'd love to get laid soon. sex everywhere. all positions. hmm. i love MEN. i want to be touched in the naughty way.  

i will think about this on the drive to my sister's house.

and it always boils down to the gettin' some, doesn't it? 

another one to add:

guttermind/demure little lamb

that is all for today.  rock, biatch!